Mount Nkwala – Penticton BC
A little while ago I caught up with a friend and had this little chat about the fact that everyone in this world has to start somewhere, a beginner and very far from perfect! It was so fitting because I had just started to write about that very subject for my next post.
We don’t see each other often due to this crazy thing call life but we always seem to sit, catch up and have these deep, raw and real conversations. Throughout life we are constantly learning, growing and progressing and to me it’s the most amazing process in life. But as we discussed more often than none, people rarely show or simply avoid sharing the mistakes or fails they made to get where they are today. But Kyla and I can sit there admit the hard times, share our fails and laugh about the most embarrassing moments going through it all. Telling me how proud she was to watch me grow inside and out this past year and how she loved following the journey I choose to share with everyone, I was trying so hard to not tear up as it was exactly the support I needed that very day. During my worst moments she spoke the truth, filled my heart with hope and has been a friend I honestly admire so much ever since. She has built this amazing photography business from the ground up, works her ass off to fulfill her dreams in the barrel racing world and has raised the coolest kid on the block. It takes time, patience and courage to get to the top and maybe we won’t all make it there but sharing the hard times proves and encourages others out there that anything is possible !!! Kyla is first to say I’ve been there done that and it sure as hell wasn’t easy. She’s a huge inspiration in all aspects of my life and I’m so excited to see her kick ass all over the country!!
@kayphotosbykyla – Instagram
Now that I have decided to take a step back from the barrel world I see that it’s just not for me anymore. But I will always be so proud to watch all my friends as they compete and crush all their goals and dreams in that crazy addicting horse world. I now enjoy the quiet trail rides on my mare, hike at my own pace and learn to climb with zero competition or expectation. It has helped me chill out more than ever in my life and I finally feel this is where I belong.
I grew up in a small town on a five acre farm, four of us crammed into the littlest house that most people would have torn down. But my parents saw potential in that little gem and all they wanted was a beautiful, safe place for my sister and I to grow up. The house was freakishly small so good thing we all got along, well most the time. My mom and dad poured their heart and souls into making that place a little piece of heaven for our family. I miss it every single day and I will keep so many amazing memories of growing up there so very close to my heart!
Giants Head – Summerland BC
My sister and I definitely had amazing support and help from our parents but we were never just handed things on a silver platter. Ever since we were young they have always taught us to work hard for the things we want and be willing to sacrifice several wants for that one and only need. My parents are seriously the most loving, hard working people I know and they are truly my number one inspiration. They worked their asses off for that place and that was their sacrifice. We had the most amazing up bringing and to be able to grow up living where we did taught us so much appreciation and kept our souls sincerely humble.
So over the years I worked really hard, put myself through school, got an amazing job and bought myself my very own home. At 27 I felt super proud of how far I had come and I seriously owe it all to my parents for reminding me to look into my future and create a secure life for myself yet live the hell out of it at the same time. Now I’m not going to sit here and go on about women power blah blah blah…. but I will say I feel damn proud to be independent and be able to support myself. That was by far the one thing I always made sure of over the years. Because truly you never know what can happen and I am proof of that going through something similar twice in my life. So now 10 years later and a few years older I’m finally feeling all the hard work paying off. Its time to get back to living, loving life, sit just back and enjoy this amazing world around me.
Skaha Bluffs Provincial Park
This is where that statement “ A Beginner Never Starts Off Being Excellent “ can come up in any situation of your life. It’s about not being afraid to say I came from so little and look where I am today. Whether it’s a job, a home or goals and dreams, I think it’s so important to remember where we all started. Be proud to tell people about the mistakes you made and the challenges you faced along the way, good or bad. It makes us who we are and keeps us humble and kind. We are all constantly learning and growing throughout our lifetime. So when I meet someone that says they never made a mistake or have never failed .. I simply chuckle to myself, grin, nod and quietly move on. Be honest and work hard to reach the top and be very proud to share your story along the way.
Yak Peak- Coquihalla Summit BC
Ive always been very independent but this year I had to learn to push myself past a few fears and definitely grow a bigger backbone. If I wanted to do something I just had to do it.. solo or not! Hiking became my outlet, my escape and it has seriously changed my life. Just myself on the trail with my own thoughts and the beauty around me I find myself escaping to a comfort zone I feel will always be my home, my safe place. I’ve always enjoyed hiking but as you all know it was my savour last year and I worked my ass off daily to get in shape to complete a few incredible summits. I was overwhelmed and so proud of how far I had come in such a short amount of time. My mindset changed and I grew so much as a person inside and out that I was even fascinated with learning who I was becoming. Finding something that was all mine, working hard, seeing the progress and crushing so many dreams … really makes a girl feel on top of the world. So since then I decided to keep it going but also listen when my body and mind is telling me it’s time to go hard or take some days off and slow it down. I want to continue to push myself, build up my never ending gear list and one day complete an insane mountaineering trip. Start small and then progress to bigger, steeper more challenging amazing things !!!
Skaha Bluffs Provincial Park
So when I decided to start climbing it was no different than hiking .. get my butt in shape and learn as much as I can. I love seeing my progress over the past few months and the day I got out to the bluffs to climb was a day I will never forget! This confidence and drive within myself blossomed and I realized how incredibly unstoppable I actually was when I put my mind and heart into something. In my past few relationships I grew to rush things, had to be perfect and developed this be on the top instantly attitude that they had. But that wasn’t me. I was so tired of failure because I wasn’t giving myself enough of a chance to take my time at my own pace and just try. My mind and body couldn’t keep up with each other so I always fell short of completing everything I set out to do because I wasn’t ready or was forced to do it their way at their pace. I wanted to be my old self again.. the one that definitely pushed herself but had patience to see the final outcome, do it at my way and completed it when I knew the time was right. And with climbing I want soak up absolutely everything I can, just have fun and continue loving every minute of it. I want more than anything to eventually complete some goals I thought were totally out of my reach but I realized now they will be there waiting for me when I’m ready.
I have a never ending list of multi day hiking trips planned and hope to kill some sweet routes at the bluffs this summer. I can’t wait to get out and make a ton more memories with all the amazing friends I’ve made over the past year. It’s going to be somewhat new to me and some of them as well so we are extremely excited for the adventures to start. I will be sharing more stories and experiences about the gear I choose to pack in with me and more video purely for your entertainment of course on watching me try to set it all up! I look forward to the challenges and all crazy experiences to come my way! Whether it’s on the highest peak or pushing towards that new climbing goal .. I’m so ready for another year of setting my soul on fire and crushing everything that’s put in front of me.